Good bless you . I read every word with tear filled eyes. I could feel my heart beating inside my chest as I read and wanted to cry and yet knew I had to finish . I know your mother ‘ Bernie’ loves what you have planted on that hill . She was rowing to in your dream . Thank you for sharing your mother it’s so touching and personal . My spirit is lifted . Peace be to you a💕
Now I have tear-filled eyes, Eleanor! Thank you for your beautiful comment! I just saw that you signed up to my newsletter and left some comments. I'm so glad you found your way here and I hope you enjoy some of my musings. :) Much Love, Barbara
This is so sweet, I listened to your soothing voice tell the story. Being a Mom is difficult, we don't come with owner's manuals. Thank you for sharing!
Aww, thank you for listening! Is your name Vilma? I was terrified the first time I did a Voiceover. It amazes me and makes me so happy to say that now I love doing them! Yes, wow, being a mom is not easy. I think being both a daughter and a mother lends a lot of extra perspectives. Hope you have a beautiful day wherever you are in the world! xo
Oh, so lovely. Thank you for sharing this. I have always had a difficult relationship with my mother, and it is no easier now. She is 88 and 1/2 and slowly sinking into dementia. But she's always been difficult for me, and I am just today feeling hopeless about ever really having things feel "good." She is the gatekeeper to my dad, and things are really really messed up with the brother, disabled, who lives with my folks, and our family is just -- difficult. I have stopped having a need for things to be "worked out," and I just would be happy with things being more or less not terrible... And right now, they are, even though the plan for today fell apart.
Family is HARD, Jaan. There's no way around it. I'm lucky that I got some closure with my mom at the end. Sometimes, though, you need to step away from toxic situations. So, don't be hard on yourself. xoxo B
Yes, I agree with what you're saying... It's not ME that's being hard on myself... It's not a pleasant trip, and I'm just thankful that it wasn't generally like this until recently... But with the help of some good friends, I've been able to realize that it's been really lousy, at times, all the way down the line. That helps me to disengage more and more, now. It's taken many years for me to understand and come to terms with some things. But... I feel I am co-opting your post!
When you spoke about Bernie, I imagined her as my mom... I think she must have been a treat. And seeing her face, she looked sort of like my dad's auntie, and I loved her... Sooooo... forgive my self-absorbed ramblings, I am still trying to find my way... I can't help but sort of envy you, and other daughters...
Oh Jaan, there are parts of my story I'm sure you wouldn't be envious of. There's always so much more to a story. But, all in all, I had a very humble but happy childhood, and for that I'm grateful. xo
I'm grateful and glad for you (aside from the more unhappy parts you allude to). I had happy times, too. Things are very clear right NOW, but weren't always, for me. But I am glad to be grown up and mature enough to understand a lot of things more objectively now.
Anyway, thanks for hearing me, and thanks for the post, which was a very lovely story which I enjoyed. Things have been difficult recently, but I know in time I will be fine.
This was lovely and bittersweet...struck a chord within my heart as a daughter and and a mother. Also, very wise words about how to handle regret. Thank you for this.💕
Thank you for reading, Sheila! Oh, it's not always easy, and there are some things that I've yet had the courage to write about. Much love back to you! xo
What a sweet comment, J.R.! Regarding my writing style, I discovered a few years ago that simple was best for me, as much as I admire more poetic writers! And happy the post made you think of your beloved mother, Theo/Helen! xo
Good bless you . I read every word with tear filled eyes. I could feel my heart beating inside my chest as I read and wanted to cry and yet knew I had to finish . I know your mother ‘ Bernie’ loves what you have planted on that hill . She was rowing to in your dream . Thank you for sharing your mother it’s so touching and personal . My spirit is lifted . Peace be to you a💕
Now I have tear-filled eyes, Eleanor! Thank you for your beautiful comment! I just saw that you signed up to my newsletter and left some comments. I'm so glad you found your way here and I hope you enjoy some of my musings. :) Much Love, Barbara
This is so sweet, I listened to your soothing voice tell the story. Being a Mom is difficult, we don't come with owner's manuals. Thank you for sharing!
Aww, thank you for listening! Is your name Vilma? I was terrified the first time I did a Voiceover. It amazes me and makes me so happy to say that now I love doing them! Yes, wow, being a mom is not easy. I think being both a daughter and a mother lends a lot of extra perspectives. Hope you have a beautiful day wherever you are in the world! xo
Oh, so lovely. Thank you for sharing this. I have always had a difficult relationship with my mother, and it is no easier now. She is 88 and 1/2 and slowly sinking into dementia. But she's always been difficult for me, and I am just today feeling hopeless about ever really having things feel "good." She is the gatekeeper to my dad, and things are really really messed up with the brother, disabled, who lives with my folks, and our family is just -- difficult. I have stopped having a need for things to be "worked out," and I just would be happy with things being more or less not terrible... And right now, they are, even though the plan for today fell apart.
Family is HARD, Jaan. There's no way around it. I'm lucky that I got some closure with my mom at the end. Sometimes, though, you need to step away from toxic situations. So, don't be hard on yourself. xoxo B
Yes, I agree with what you're saying... It's not ME that's being hard on myself... It's not a pleasant trip, and I'm just thankful that it wasn't generally like this until recently... But with the help of some good friends, I've been able to realize that it's been really lousy, at times, all the way down the line. That helps me to disengage more and more, now. It's taken many years for me to understand and come to terms with some things. But... I feel I am co-opting your post!
When you spoke about Bernie, I imagined her as my mom... I think she must have been a treat. And seeing her face, she looked sort of like my dad's auntie, and I loved her... Sooooo... forgive my self-absorbed ramblings, I am still trying to find my way... I can't help but sort of envy you, and other daughters...
Oh Jaan, there are parts of my story I'm sure you wouldn't be envious of. There's always so much more to a story. But, all in all, I had a very humble but happy childhood, and for that I'm grateful. xo
I'm grateful and glad for you (aside from the more unhappy parts you allude to). I had happy times, too. Things are very clear right NOW, but weren't always, for me. But I am glad to be grown up and mature enough to understand a lot of things more objectively now.
Anyway, thanks for hearing me, and thanks for the post, which was a very lovely story which I enjoyed. Things have been difficult recently, but I know in time I will be fine.
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This was lovely and bittersweet...struck a chord within my heart as a daughter and and a mother. Also, very wise words about how to handle regret. Thank you for this.💕
Thank you for reading, Sherry! You're so very welcome. xoxo
Thank you for sharing you Barbara😍so beautifully! You are very blessed to go that deep into your family. Much love, Sheila
Thank you for reading, Sheila! Oh, it's not always easy, and there are some things that I've yet had the courage to write about. Much love back to you! xo
What a sweet comment, J.R.! Regarding my writing style, I discovered a few years ago that simple was best for me, as much as I admire more poetic writers! And happy the post made you think of your beloved mother, Theo/Helen! xo